okay, okay

Posted in Uncategorized on April 18, 2010 by scaredykatt

i’ve not written on this for a couple of days, forgive me, i forgot.

uhhh, i’m so tired lately, i’ve got tons of coursework to do and i’m back in school on tuesday, i’m doomed.

for once, i’m actually looking forward to going back to school, i’m sick of being sat in now, seeing as i’ve been deserted by 80% of my “friends”. and most of my real friends are actually in school, i really miss them. so, what’s gone on in the past couple of days? not alot. social life, pretty much dead, love life, pretty much non-existant. it’s quite depressing. oh, i dyed my hair yesterday, i just wanted to stop being called ginger so i’ve gone blonde-ish. you can hardly tell the difference, but it’s taken all hints of red out of my hair. i must admit it does look better. and i’m going to ashton today aswell, with rosie, so that should be good to just have a nice bitch. but, not much has gone on today so far, so if anything interesting happens in ashton with rosie i shall post another blog later to make up for the lack of continuity. i never end up carrying these blogs on. i shall try my hardest. 🙂



Posted in Uncategorized on April 14, 2010 by scaredykatt

okay, i hate cliffs.

was having a really good day with emily, jsut sitting around doing nothing pretty much, but good none the less, then we decide to see who’s out. so we give charlee a ring and her and tonguey come out and after going to the chippy they were like oh, we’re going knowsley now for some piss up. knowing full well who wouldof been there, i really didn’t want to go. but after about an hour of me complaining, we ended up on this random field. so i refused to go over to where everyone had set up tents and stuff so i sat and watched football with some guys. after about half an hour, me and emily had to go and meet this girl and when we got back everyone had disappeared out of the field, so we were forced to go over to where everyone was. thats when things kicked off. one of my friends nearly got pushed off a cliff. so we went back to karls. i nearly got raped by a dog. it’s all good. lmao.

but yeah, tomorrow should be good, i’m going to emily’s again for a picnic. i hope the suns out 🙂


Posted in Uncategorized on April 13, 2010 by scaredykatt

i had a well weird dream last night,

it was just a normal day, like, i felt like i’d gone back in time, it was just a replay of a day about a month ago, and i was really happy. i woke up and i was like, woah.

i think it’s cause i’ve been thinking about it alot recently. i actually think i’m better off now though.

spent my day with tom, fliss and cam today, was pretty boring but really funny. had another good chat with tom and ended up telling him something i regret telling him now. he’s never going to let me live it down. ahaha.

so i’m sat here listening to the maine, cause it was too cold so i came in. i feel a bit sick though cause i’ve just made myself some toast and my mums bought this new butter, flora or somethingorother, but we normally get asda’s own and this floras not gone down well with my stomach. not looking forward to my mum coming home from work cause she’s gonna go sick because of the mess i’ve made. i might just lock myself in my room and hide. then blame my brother.  sounds good to me. todays kind of made me realise i’ve not lost everyone. i’ve still got the people who matter most. it’s cheered me up a hell of a lot. one thing which is pissing me off though is the fact that i have lost my straighteners. how the hell have i managed to lose my straighteners? it’s not like i could have possibly misplaced them. they’re pretty hard to miss. so i’ve had a really bad hair day today. i went through my camera today aswell and found some pretty funny photos which i’ma upload to facebook. school in another couple of days, don’t know whether to dread it or be glad. ooer, my mothers home now, time to set up the barricades. ciao.

so far.

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on April 13, 2010 by scaredykatt

i’m sick of facebook, sick of tumblr, dailybooth, twitter. the whole social networking scene has started to bore me.

so, i was sat here, in bed, 1.20 am wondering what on earth i should do.

so here i am, i’m going to start a blog. again.

now, here’s the tricky part, what the hell can i write about seeing as today i didn’t even wake up until 3, never mind make an effort to even change out of my pyjamas. well, having said that, i did wake up at half ten this morning, which is quite an achievement for me, but then i got up, made myself a cup of tea and then thought whats the point? and got straight back into bed. anyway, when i finally did get up, i did absolutely nothing, i’ve pretty much been sat in bed all day thinking about stuff which just gets me down anyway.

like how my social life has pretty much died since i dumped my ex-boyfriend. i guess it’s my own fault really, i loved him to pieces, was just incredibly unhappy and i think i blamed him, so i ended it. via text. mistake number 1. then went to one of my closest friends house, who happens to be a boy. which inevitably got him involved in the whole situation and he ended up with a group of angry kids outside his front door. mistake number 2. then i got drunk. mistake number 3. and started texting him. mistake number 4. then apparently got off with a different ex-boyfriend. mistake number 5. the list continues. so yeah, now, all of my friends, who are also his friends, now don’t speak to me. and the one thing which always made me happy, going into town, i can’t do anymore because i will most definitely bump into said ex-boyfriend which will probably cause some sort of drama of which i can’t be bothered with at the moment. so now, i’m left with a few decent friends who’ve stuck by me through the whole thing. Emily, Charli and Harry. then there’s my other friends from school who i don’t really speak to outside of mossley hollins. i just want to move out of that whole group of friends really, i’m trying to, i’ve been going to springhead with emily a hell of a lot, i’m just too shy to really talk to the people there which is quite unusual seeing as normally i’d be the one making the conversations. i think i’ve just suffered a severe knock to my confidence. it’s not that i’m not over my ex, i think i’m done with that now, i’ve kind of moved on. i think its the fact that everything has fallen from under my feet so suddenly. i’m having to rebuild everything from scratch. i think another thing that’s dragging me down is the fact i feel completely alone, i’m so used to having someone who loves me, and now he’s gone it’s weird. i mean, i kind of like someone at the moment though, i’m really not sure about it. i think i’ve been more pushed into being interested in him though, like, i hardly know him, but it’s been drilled into my head that i should like him. i mean, yeah, he seems like a nice person, if not a bit mean, he’s funny. exactly my type, but i feel like i think that because that’s what people have been telling me to think. i don’t know. i’d rather just get to know someone first. i think if i would have met him without people saying all this stuff to me i would have ended up liking him but it’s still kind of like, you know. :/ well, you probably don’t, pahah, but you get the general picture. hmm. i don’t think i’d stand a chance in hell anyway, so i might as well just forget about it.